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Why Adulthood Doesn’t Always Feel Like You Thought It Would

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Many people expect adulthood to arrive with a sense of certainty. Yet for many in their mid to late twenties, the opposite can happen; a growing sense of confusion, pressure, or questioning about who they are and how they want to live. There is often an assumption that becoming an adult happens automatically.

We reach certain ages, complete education, begin careers, form relationships, and outwardly appear independent. Yet internally, many people describe feeling uncertain, disconnected, or unexpectedly overwhelmed during the transition into adulthood. In therapy, it is not unusual to meet clients in their mid to late twenties who describe feeling as though something has shifted. Choices that once felt exciting begin to feel more permanent. Relationships become more significant. Questions around identity, purpose, work, and belonging become more emotionally charged. For many, this period feels less like arriving and more like reorganising.

The Brain Is Still Developing

Although adolescence is often thought of as ending in the teenage years, aspects of emotional and social development continue well into early adulthood. Puberty begins a significant period of biological change that influences emotional experience, reward sensitivity, identity formation, and relationships. Parts of the brain involved in social awareness and emotional processing undergo extensive development during adolescence and continue maturing into the twenties. This developmental stage supports exploration, experimentation, social learning, and a greater willingness to engage with uncertainty and novelty. In many ways, this openness serves an important purpose. Without some capacity for risk-taking and exploration, it might be far more difficult to leave familiar environments, try new experiences, form relationships, and develop independence. However, as development continues into the mid-twenties, many people notice a shift. Experiences that once felt exciting may begin to carry greater awareness of responsibility, consequence, and long-term impact. This transition can feel confusing.

Sometimes people ask:

“Why am I suddenly thinking about everything differently?”

“Why do decisions feel heavier now?”

“Why do things that once felt exciting now feel uncertain?”

This does not necessarily mean something is wrong. It may reflect a gradual integration between emotional drives and a growing capacity for reflection and long-term thinking.

The Behavioural Blueprint We Bring Forward

Biology is only part of the story. By early adulthood, most people are also carrying a behavioural framework developed through childhood experiences. Through our families and early environments, we learn certain expectations about ourselves and the world. We learn how to seek approval, how to manage emotions, whether needs feel acceptable, how conflict is handled and what success means.

Some of these patterns support growth and connection. Others may have been highly adaptive in childhood but begin to feel restrictive in adulthood. A person who learned to prioritise others may struggle to make independent choices. Someone praised for achievement may feel lost without external validation. Someone who learned to avoid conflict may find adult relationships increasingly difficult.

From Adaptation to Choice

Transactional Analysis offers a helpful way of understanding this period. Many of the responses that helped us belong in childhood become part of our internal relational blueprint. These adaptations often develop intelligently and for good reason. However, adulthood asks different questions.

Rather than:

“How do I stay accepted?”

the question gradually becomes:

“Who am I when I begin making choices for myself?”

This shift can feel unsettling. Behaviours that once created safety may no longer support growth. What worked in one stage of life may begin to feel limiting in another.

Why This Stage Can Feel So Uncomfortable

One reason this transition can feel difficult is because adulthood often involves experiencing greater freedom alongside greater responsibility. The external structure of childhood gradually falls away. There is often less certainty, fewer fixed milestones, and more responsibility for creating meaning. This can lead to periods of comparison, self-doubt, or feeling left behind. At times, people may interpret this discomfort as failure. In reality, it may reflect the beginning of a deeper developmental process. The movement from adaptation towards self-authorship rarely feels entirely comfortable.

How Therapy Can Help

Therapy can provide space to slow down and understand this transition rather than rushing through it. It offers an opportunity to explore both the biological and psychological changes taking place, and to recognise which parts of ourselves still belong to earlier stages of life. Rather than asking whether a person is succeeding at adulthood, therapy often explores:

“Which parts of me am I carrying forward?”

“Which parts no longer fit?”

“What kind of adult do I want to become?”

As awareness develops, many people begin to move away from inherited expectations and towards choices that feel more intentional and aligned.

A Compassionate Perspective

The transition into adulthood is often less about becoming someone new and more about discovering which parts of ourselves still fit and which need revising. Periods of confusion, uncertainty, and questioning are not necessarily signs that something is wrong. They may simply be signs that growth is taking place. With time, reflection, and support, adulthood can become less about arriving at certainty and more about developing a relationship with ourselves that feels increasingly authentic.

Collette O’Mahony is a Psychotherapeutic Counsellor in private practice, working with clients online. She writes regularly on mental health and emotional wellbeing, with a focus on self-discovery, developing self-awareness, and supporting individuals to take meaningful responsibility for their inner lives.

To book a free introduction session click here.

Breaking Old Communication Patterns: How to Stay Adult in Difficult Conversations

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Many adults find that their most challenging conversations are not with colleagues, friends, or partners, but with their parents. Despite being fully independent adults, they may notice themselves becoming defensive, frustrated, withdrawn, or eager to gain approval. A simple disagreement can suddenly feel emotionally charged in ways that seem disproportionate to the situation. Likewise, parents may find themselves speaking to their adult son or daughter in ways that feel protective, critical, instructive, or controlling, even when their intention is to help. When this happens, both people can become caught in familiar patterns that belong more to the past than the present.

Why Old Roles Are So Powerful

The relationships we have with our parents are often the longest and most influential relationships of our lives. Over many years, families naturally develop roles and patterns of communication. One person may become the responsible one, another the peacemaker, another the rebel, and another the child who seeks approval. These roles often continue operating long after childhood has ended. As a result, two adults may find themselves interacting as though one is still the parent and the other is still the child. This can happen even when both people genuinely want a more mature and respectful relationship.

The Adapted Child and Critical Parent

Transactional Analysis (TA) describes how people can shift between different ego states during communication. When conversations become emotionally charged, many adults find themselves moving into what is sometimes called the Adapted Child position. They may feel criticised, judged, controlled, or compelled to defend themselves. At the same time, the other person may move into a Critical Parent position, offering correction, instruction, criticism, or unsolicited advice. Neither person may consciously choose these roles. They often emerge automatically because they are familiar. The difficulty is that once these positions become activated, genuine communication becomes much harder. The conversation is no longer occurring between two adults in the present moment. Instead, it is being shaped by patterns that were established years earlier.

When We Focus on Changing the Other Person

When relationships become stuck, it is natural to focus on what the other person is doing wrong. We may spend a great deal of energy wishing they would listen differently, speak differently, or finally understand our point of view. While these wishes are understandable, they often leave us feeling powerless because they depend upon someone else’s behaviour changing first.

A more helpful question can be: How do I want to communicate?

This shifts attention away from controlling the other person’s response and towards taking responsibility for our own. We set the tone as an adult. We show up as an adult. Even when we become triggered, we rely on our adult-self rather than reverting to old dynamics; this may mean cutting a visit or conversation short so as to avert descending into unhelpful patterns.

Creating a New Communication Framework

Before entering a difficult conversation, it can be useful to think about how you would ideally like to show up.

You might ask yourself:

  • How do I want to speak?
  • What tone would I like to maintain?
  • What boundaries do I want to hold?
  • What would communicating as an adult look like in this situation?
  • How do I want to respond if I begin feeling triggered?

Having clarity about these questions creates an internal framework that can help guide the interaction. Rather than reacting automatically, there is greater opportunity to respond intentionally.

Staying Adult When Old Feelings Arise

One of the greatest challenges is maintaining an adult perspective when old emotions become activated. A comment from a parent can suddenly evoke feelings of being misunderstood, criticised, or not good enough. Equally, a parent may feel rejected, dismissed, or unappreciated by their adult child. When this happens, it can be helpful to pause and remember:

“I am not a child in this moment.”

“This feeling may be familiar, but I am responding as an adult.”

“I can choose how I communicate, even if I cannot control how the other person responds.”

Remaining grounded does not mean suppressing emotions. Rather, it means allowing feelings to be present without allowing them to dictate the conversation.

The Goal Is Not Perfection

Moving away from long-established family patterns rarely happens in a single conversation. There will be times when old roles reappear. There may be moments when both people fall back into familiar ways of relating. There may be pressure applied from other family members to retreat into the old, familiar role or dynamic.

This is part of the process. The goal is not perfect communication. The goal is becoming more aware of what is happening and making small, consistent choices that support a different way of relating. Even if there is a feeling of fear, hurt or anger, it does not need to play out in familiar patterns. Sometimes stepping back and giving the feeling a safe space to emote can be a powerful practice is processing long-held resentments or guilt. Over time, choices made by the adult-self begin to reshape the relationship. The controlling parent and acquiescent child; the compliant parent and manipulative child and other variants of the adult/child dynamic find a new way to communicate. When one or both persons make a conscious choice to strengthen boundaries and communicate clearly, the relationship benefits.

How Therapy Can Help

Many people understand these patterns intellectually but struggle to change them in practice. Therapy can provide a space to explore the emotional triggers that keep old roles in place and to understand why certain conversations feel so difficult. It can also help people develop greater awareness of their reactions, strengthen emotional regulation, and practise new ways of communicating that feel more authentic and effective. As clients become clearer about how they want to communicate, they often discover a greater sense of confidence and choice. Rather than being pulled into familiar parent-child dynamics, they begin responding from a more grounded adult position.

A Compassionate Perspective

Most difficult communication patterns begin as attempts to maintain connection, safety, or belonging within a family. The roles we learned in childhood often served an important purpose at the time. However, relationships continue to evolve, and the ways we communicate may need to evolve with them. Learning to communicate as an adult is not about winning arguments or changing other people. It is about developing the ability to remain connected to ourselves while staying engaged with others. From this place, conversations become less about repeating the past and more about creating something new in the present.

Collette O’Mahony is a Psychotherapeutic Counsellor in private practice, working with clients online. She writes regularly on mental health and emotional wellbeing, with a focus on self-discovery, developing self-awareness, and supporting individuals to take meaningful responsibility for their inner lives.

To book a free introduction session click here.

Anxious Attachment: When Relationships Feel Less Safe Than Everything Else

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Many people who experience anxious attachment are surprised by how differently they function in relationships compared to other areas of life. They may feel confident with friends, capable at work, and secure within their family, yet find themselves overwhelmed by doubt, worry, or fear when it comes to a romantic partner.

What Is Anxious Attachment?

Anxious attachment describes a pattern in which a person becomes highly sensitive to signs of disconnection, rejection, or emotional distance within close relationships. This sensitivity is not a conscious choice. It is often rooted in earlier experiences where connection felt uncertain, inconsistent, or difficult to rely upon. As adults, these individuals often desire closeness deeply. Relationships matter enormously to them. However, because relationships feel so important, they can also become a source of anxiety. Small changes in communication, tone, availability, or affection may be noticed quickly and interpreted as signs that something is wrong.

One of the most confusing aspects of anxious attachment is that it frequently remains invisible outside intimate relationships. A person may have strong friendships, healthy family connections, and successful professional relationships. They may not generally see themselves as anxious at all. The reason is that romantic relationships often activate our deepest attachment needs. A friend taking a few hours to reply may not feel significant. A partner taking the same amount of time can trigger worry, uncertainty, or a sense of emotional threat. This does not mean the person is irrational. Rather, the relationship has become linked to a part of the nervous system that is highly attuned to connection and loss. In effect, a threat-monitoring system becomes attached to the relationship itself.

How Anxious Attachment Feels From the Inside

For the person experiencing it, anxious attachment can be exhausting. There may be a constant scanning for signs that everything is okay. A delayed message, a change in routine, or a shift in mood can quickly become the focus of attention.

“Have I done something wrong?”

“Are they pulling away?”

“Do they still feel the same?”

Often there is an awareness that these worries may be disproportionate, yet knowing this does not necessarily stop them. The nervous system can react long before logic has a chance to intervene. Many people describe feeling caught between a desire to relax and a powerful urge to seek reassurance.

Healing anxious attachment is not about becoming less caring or less emotionally connected. Rather, it involves learning to recognise when the nervous system has moved into threat-monitoring mode.

Prediction or Evidence Based Response

Many people find it helpful to ask:

Am I basing my response on prediction or evidence?

  • If it’s prediction, does it feel familiar?
  • Is the feeling connected to past experience rather than the current relationship?
  • If evidence, what am I responding to right now?
  • Am I reacting to what is happening in the present, or to a fear of what might happen?

Therapeutic work often involves strengthening the ability to self-soothe, tolerate uncertainty, and remain connected to one’s own experience without immediately seeking reassurance from another person.

For Partners

Living alongside someone with anxious attachment can be both rewarding and challenging. Many partners find themselves caught in a difficult position. They want to provide reassurance, yet they may notice that reassurance only brings temporary relief before the same fears return. They may begin to wonder whether they are saying the wrong thing, doing too little, or somehow failing to meet their partner’s needs. Over time, this can create feelings of frustration, helplessness, or even resentment.

Some partners describe feeling as though they are being continually assessed for signs of withdrawal, disinterest, or rejection. Ordinary behaviours, such as needing time alone, being busy with work, or feeling tired, can sometimes become interpreted as signs that something is wrong within the relationship. This can leave partners feeling misunderstood. They may know they are committed to the relationship, yet feel unable to convince their loved one of this in a lasting way. As a result, some partners begin to withdraw emotionally, not because they care less, but because they feel overwhelmed by the responsibility of constantly managing another person’s anxiety. This is often one of the most painful aspects of anxious attachment. The very behaviours that are intended to create closeness can sometimes create distance.

For partners, it can be helpful to remember that reassurance alone is rarely enough to heal anxious attachment. While consistency, warmth, and emotional availability are important, lasting change usually involves the anxious partner developing greater trust in their own ability to tolerate uncertainty and regulate difficult emotions. Healthy relationships require both compassion and boundaries.

When both people can recognise the pattern as something they are facing together, rather than something that belongs solely to one person, it often becomes easier to move out of blame and towards greater understanding and connection.

How Individual Counselling Can Help

Many people who experience anxious attachment initially come to therapy believing that the problem lies in their relationship. While relationship difficulties may certainly be present, therapy often reveals that the deeper struggle is not simply about the partner, but about the fear, uncertainty, and threat responses that become activated within close relationships. Often, anxious attachment is linked to earlier relational experiences where emotional security felt inconsistent or uncertain. Therapy can help people understand how these experiences may continue to influence present-day relationships, even when circumstances are very different.

As awareness grows, clients often begin to recognise the difference between what is happening in the present moment and what their nervous system has learned to anticipate from the past. Counselling can also help strengthen emotional regulation, develop greater self-trust, and reduce the reliance on reassurance from others as the primary source of security. Rather than constantly scanning a relationship for signs of danger, individuals can gradually learn to find a greater sense of stability within themselves. This does not mean becoming less connected or less caring. Instead, it means developing the ability to remain emotionally present within a relationship without being overwhelmed by fear.

The goal is not to remove the need for connection. It is to develop a stronger sense of safety within oneself, so that relationships become a source of closeness rather than a source of constant vigilance. With awareness, patience, and support, it becomes possible to step out of threat-monitoring mode and into a more secure way of relating, where connection can be enjoyed rather than continually feared.

Final Note

Many of the challenges we experience in relationships begin with the relationship we have with ourselves. Learning to understand our inner world can often be the first step towards creating healthier and more secure connections with others.

Collette O’Mahony is a Psychotherapeutic Counsellor in private practice, working with clients online. She writes regularly on mental health and emotional wellbeing, with a focus on self-discovery, developing self-awareness, and supporting individuals to take meaningful responsibility for their inner lives.

To book a free introduction session click here.

Navigating Self-Discovery: Understanding Your Inner Identity

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There’s a particular kind of question that doesn’t arrive lightly. It tends to surface slowly, often after years of getting on with things, doing what’s expected, being who you’ve always been. And then, one day, it lands with a weight that’s hard to ignore: Who am I, really?

For many people, this question shows up in their late 20s or 30s, sometimes later. It might be stirred by a life change, or it might seem to come out of nowhere. On the surface, life can look fine; work, relationships, responsibilities all in place. And yet underneath, something feels off. Not dramatically wrong, just quietly out of place. People often describe it as a sense of disconnection. As if they’ve been living a life that looks right, but doesn’t quite feel like theirs. Alongside that can come a mix of emotions that are harder to make sense of. Low mood, restlessness, anxiety, or a kind of flatness where things that used to matter no longer do. For some, it can feel more intense than that, like everything they’ve built their life on is starting to crack. It can feel frightening. It can feel like something is going wrong. But very often, something else is happening.

When the Self You Built Stops Fitting

In developmental terms, our teenage years are when we begin to form a sense of who we are. Not just what we do, but what we value, what we feel drawn to, what seems to fit. In an ideal world, development in teenage years unfolds with enough space to explore, question, and push against expectations. But many people don’t get that kind of freedom.

If you grew up in an environment where approval mattered, where certain emotions weren’t welcomed, or where there were strong expectations about who you should be, you likely adapted. You learned, often without realising it, how to be acceptable, how to stay connected, how to avoid conflict or disapproval. You might have become someone who copes well, achieves, keeps the peace, doesn’t make things difficult. These are not small things. They take awareness, sensitivity, and effort. Over time, though, those ways of being can become less like choices and more like identity. Not because they fully reflect who you are, but because they were what worked.

Until they don’t.

The Quiet Shift That Changes Everything

At some point, often without warning, the fit begins to loosen. What once felt normal starts to feel effortful. What once made sense starts to feel restrictive. You might notice that you’re saying yes when something in you wants to say no, or that you’re moving through your days without a real sense of connection to what you’re doing.

It’s not always dramatic. In fact, it’s often quite subtle at first. A kind of internal friction. A sense that you’re slightly out of step with your own life until gradually, it becomes harder to ignore.

This is often the point where people begin to worry about themselves. They wonder if they’re becoming ungrateful, or unstable, or if something is wrong with them. Especially if their mood dips, or their motivation drops, or they feel more emotionally reactive than they used to. But this shift doesn’t usually come out of nowhere. It tends to emerge when the version of you that was shaped around external expectations no longer fits the person you are becoming.

You Didn’t Get It Wrong

It’s important to say this clearly: the version of you that got you here is not a mistake. It was, in many ways, an intelligent and necessary response to your environment. It helped you navigate relationships, maintain connection, and find your place in the world as it was presented to you. But adapting to an environment and knowing yourself deeply are not always the same thing. And there often comes a point where something in you begins to ask for more alignment. Not more achievement or approval, but more honesty. More congruence between how you live and what you actually feel, want, and value. That’s not failure. That’s development continuing.

Why It Can Feel Unsettling

When this process begins, it can feel less like growth and more like things are coming undone. Part of that is because the roles you’ve relied on for years start to feel less solid. The ways you’ve understood yourself, capable, easy-going, reliable, accommodating, may still be true, but they no longer feel complete. At the same time, what comes next isn’t immediately clear. There can be a sense of standing in between versions of yourself, without a clear sense of who you are becoming.

That in-between space can feel uncomfortable, even frightening. It can bring up questions about your relationships, your work, your direction in life. It can also bring up grief, for the time spent being who you needed to be, and for the recognition or ease that may not have come with it. For some people, the intensity of this experience leads to thoughts about wanting to escape entirely. Not necessarily because they want their life to end, but because the way they have been living no longer feels possible. Seen this way, those thoughts are less about wanting to disappear, and more about wanting something to change at a very deep level.

Moving Toward Something More Your Own

If there is a direction to this process, it’s not about reinventing yourself from scratch. It’s more about gradually noticing what feels true and what doesn’t. That might begin with small, almost quiet recognitions. Realising that something you’ve always gone along with doesn’t actually sit right with you. Noticing that you feel more like yourself in some environments than others. Becoming aware of how often you override your own preferences. These are not dramatic shifts, but they matter. They are signs that your attention is turning inward in a new way.

If you’ve spent years orienting yourself around what’s expected or needed by others, this can feel unfamiliar at first. There may be uncertainty, or even guilt, in paying closer attention to your own experience. But over time, this is where a more stable sense of self begins to form. Not one based purely on roles or expectations, but one that includes your own voice.

You’re Not Losing Yourself

It can feel like that when things start to shift. As if the ground beneath you is less certain than it used to be. But more often, what’s happening is that you are outgrowing a version of yourself that no longer fits the life you’re in now. The discomfort isn’t a sign that you’re broken or that something has gone wrong. It’s a sign that something in you is no longer willing to stay confined to what once worked. That can take time to understand. And it can take time to trust.

But if you find yourself asking “Who am I, really?”, it may help to consider that this question isn’t the beginning of a crisis. It may be the beginning of a more honest relationship with yourself. And while that process can feel uncertain, it’s also where something steadier, and more your own, has the chance to emerge.

Collette O’Mahony is a Psychotherapeutic Counsellor in private practice, working with clients online. She writes regularly on mental health and emotional wellbeing, with a focus on self-discovery, developing self-awareness, and supporting individuals to take meaningful responsibility for their inner lives.

To book a 15 minute free introduction email me at info@colletteomahony.com

Finding Your Inner Compass:

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From External to Internal Locus of Evaluation

In my counselling practice, one of the most transformative shifts I witness in clients is the move from an External Locus of Evaluation to an Internal Locus of Evaluation. When we live with an external locus, we are essentially living our lives according to a script written by others. When we begin to develop an internal locus, we start writing our own script. Understanding this transition is essential for anyone seeking deeper authenticity and emotional resilience.

The External Locus: Living for the Audience

Carl Rogers developed this concept to explain how people, through therapy or personal growth, shift from needing external validation to trusting their own internal judgment. An external locus of evaluation occurs when we outsource our self-worth and decision-making to the world around us. It is like trying to navigate a landscape while constantly looking at a mirror held by someone else to see if we are going the right way.

Self-worth fluctuates based on the feedback of others. Praise provides a temporary hit of stability, while criticism feels like a profound threat to your identity. Decisions are often paralysis-inducing, filtered through the lens of “What will they think?” rather than “What do I value?”

You may find yourself morphing your personality, opinions, or behaviours to fit the specific audience you are with, leading to a fragmented sense of self. Because you distrust your own judgment, you rely heavily on authority figures or peers to tell you if you are on the “right” path.

The Internal Locus: Trusting Your Own North Star

Moving toward an internal locus of evaluation is not about becoming cold or indifferent to others; it is about reclaiming your own sovereignty. It is the process of shifting your reference point from the outside world back to your own core values.

Your sense of “rightness” is no longer a public vote; it is an internal alignment. You ask, “Does this feel right for me?”

You can tolerate being misunderstood or disagreed with because your stability is no longer contingent on external consensus. Your identity remains relatively stable across different contexts. You aren’t playing a role; you are simply being yourself. You set limits based on your own needs and capacities, rather than shifting them to accommodate external expectations or fear of rejection.

Understanding the Roots: Why We Adopt an External Locus

Perhaps you are wondering: If an internal locus is more authentic and resilient, why do so many of us start with, and stay stuck in, an external one? The answer is rarely about a lack of character; it is almost always about survival and adaptation.

The Survival Mechanism: Why We Look Outward

From an evolutionary and developmental perspective, our early environment dictates how we learn to orient ourselves. We are social creatures; for a human child, connection with caregivers is not just a preference; it is a biological necessity for survival.

Adaptive Compliance: If you grew up in an environment where your needs were only met when you were “good,” “quiet,” or “compliant,” you learned early on that your worth was contingent on your performance. You had to monitor your caregivers’ expressions and expectations to ensure your own security.

The Cost of Authenticity: In many families, expressing a divergent opinion or asserting a personal boundary was met with withdrawal of affection, ridicule, or punishment. To stay “safe” within that system, you learned to suppress your internal signals and prioritize the expectations of others.

External Anchoring: When caregivers are emotionally inconsistent or preoccupied, a child may struggle to develop a stable sense of self. They turn to external feedback as a way to “check” if they are okay, essentially using others as an external barometer for their own internal safety.

Conditioning Through Life Experiences

Beyond childhood, our environments continue to reinforce an external locus. We are rarely rewarded for being “internally validated”; society, in fact, is often structured to keep us in that external loop.

Educational and Workplace Systems: Many structures are built on hierarchies that prioritize conformity over critical, independent thought. When grades, promotions, and bonuses are tied entirely to how well we adhere to someone else’s rubric, we are being trained to maintain an external focus.

The Echo Chamber of social media: Modern life presents us with a constant, quantified feedback loop. Likes, comments, and views provide an immediate, data-driven “external locus” that is highly addictive. It is easy to start believing that our value is quantifiable, leading to a profound erosion of internal trust.

Moving From Safety to Selfhood

It is important to approach this realisation with profound self-compassion. If you have an external locus, you do not lack individuality; you successfully adapted to a world that demanded your compliance. Your individuality strengthens when the scaffolding of conditioning is dismantled.

The struggle to develop an internal locus is not about fixing a broken part of yourself; it is about realising that the survival tools you needed in your formative years are no longer the tools that serve you as an adult. When you were younger, looking outward was the smartest way to survive. Now, looking inward is the bravest way to thrive.

How the Shift From External to Internal Locus Facilitates Change

This is not a binary switch, but a journey of reclamation. As you practice shifting your locus of evaluation, several profound changes occur:

Reduced Anxiety: You stop carrying the exhausting burden of managing other people’s perceptions.

Increased Agency: When you trust your own judgment, you feel capable of navigating challenges without needing constant external reassurance.

Self-Compassion: You stop the cycle of global self-condemnation. A mistake becomes a data point for learning, rather than evidence of your personal inadequacy.

Deeper Relationships: Paradoxically, by relying less on others for stability, you become more capable of forming genuine, interdependent connections, as you are relating from a place of wholeness rather than neediness.

If you are currently feeling as though you are living for an audience, I invite you to start small. Next time you face a choice, pause. Ask yourself: If I knew that no one would ever know, or if I knew that no one could judge my decision, what would I choose? That small act of inquiry is the first step toward your internal compass.

Collette O’Mahony (Dip.Psy.C) May 2026

Collette O’Mahony is a Psychotherapeutic Counsellor in private practice, working with clients online. She writes regularly on mental health and emotional wellbeing, with a focus on self-discovery, developing self-awareness, and supporting individuals to take meaningful responsibility for their inner lives.

To book a free introduction session click here.